Big world, Little girl.

Hello real world, where'd you come from, and how'd you get here so fast? There's nothing like growing up and realizing that you are being forced to do it faster than you would like. I'm not ready for the big world yet. I'm still a little girl, haha. The move went well, and I am officially living in Florida now. I was so fortunate to have a friend here with me the first week, but I wish she didn't have to leave. This was my first day here by myself, and I already feel lonelier than ever. I need friends here, and I need them fast. Don't get me wrong -I will enjoy some time by myself...but not all of my time. I've never lived alone before much less live alone in a place where I know not a soul. It's gonna be a rough couple of weeks. I've already cried 6 times today. God, I hope this feeling surpasses quickly because I hate it.

I did find a church this morning. I hope to find one here that will be comfortable and a place I can call "home" but I know that may take time. I went to Eastside Community Church, and people were very nice there. I actually talked to a woman who has a 5 year old son with autism who receives speech therapy in Duval county schools -which is where I will be working. The problem is that I still do not know which school(s). That's another story in itself which adds to my frustration and uneasy feelings at the moment. I won't know anything until after the 10th, and I'm pretty sure I will start working on the 19th. What, so that means I have approximately one week to prepare? Yep, looks that way. Dang it. I'm not a fan of the Florida board of education at the moment. I could go on and on about this situation because like I said, it's a story in itself. I shall move on.

I'm sounding very negative, I realize, but there are some positive things as well. I finally got to go down to Jacksonville Landing the other day, and it was awesome. They had live music right on the river with a fabulous view. The bridges were all lit up, and it was a relaxing environment. I'll definitely revisit sometime soon -that is when I find a friend.



On my way back from taking Holly to the airport this morning in Orlando (we left at 3am because it's a 2 hour drive), I stopped at Daytona Beach to watch the sunrise. It was beautiful. I spread some of mom's ashes there too...I try to do that wherever I go! It has rained every single evening since I've been down here except yesterday. It's been pretty during the day then rained in the evenings. I decided to go for a run today, but I totally got defeated by the humidity. Bad idea. The humidity is brutal down here. Needless to say I will get a lot more use out of my treadmill now! Oh, and I will be working with a personal trainer starting next week. I can get exercise swimming at night as well. Don't know what else to do with myself but workout, read, and play my guitar. This is gonna be a long year.